Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Final Chapter

Nov 30, 1979
Went to Hurrahs to see Wreckless Eric. He was ok. Tommy Trask was there. After we went to Max's and the Contortions were playing but we missed seeing them. I spoke to Howie for awhile. Walter was there. I also saw Frank Infante. Then we went to CBGBs and saw the Colors. The lead singer is really cute. Clem Burke was there and he got his haircut. Oh gee - what a Rock Star night. So made at my roommate over the bullshit over the Ramones tickets at the Paladium for New Years Eve. Glad we are not moving anywhere together. I don't even think I might moving back to NJ. Just really sick of NYC and this whole scene.

Dec 3rd, 1979
I went home for the weekend and when I came back I got an awful surprise. Arturo was there and he let my dog go loose. He took her to the park and just let her go. I spoke to Billy and we are getting along now.

Dec 4th, 1979
I spent all day looking for my dog but no luck. The ASPCA thought someone found her but it was not Eva. Spoke to Billy.

Dec 5th, 1979
I found my dog. Someone had found her and they had taken her away with them for the weekend. I am so happy to have her back. Spoke to Billy again.

Dec 6th, 1979
Moved all my stuff back to NJ

Dec 7th, 1979
I went to Maxs and saw the Incognitos. Walter Lure and Cheetah Chrome were in the band. Frank Infante went on stage and jammed with them. Clem Burke and Gary Valentine were also there for alittle while. Paul Zone was there and we talked awhile. I spoke to Walker alot. Billy was there and we sort of got along like it was old times. He gave me my movies back. They are playing at Maxs on Wed since Neon Leon cancelled. I guess I will go. It turned out all of the Blessed were there tonight.

Dec 9th, 1979
I went to see Iggy at Hurrahs with some band Human Sexual Response. Iggy was pretty wild. We got there pretty early so I was right up against the stage. The crowd was too wild and I thought I was going to die a few times. And guess who was there, David Bowie! He looked so good as always. He went running by with Iggy. The two of them looked so cute together. God, I hadn't seen David Bowie in so long. Oh Hail True Love!

Dec 12th, 1979
I went to see the Blessed and the Boyfriends at Maxs. It was empty so the Blessed only did one set. But it wasn't their fault because Neon Leon was supposed to play instead. He spoke to Billy and he was so nice. I spoke to Billy yesterday to make sure they were playing and Brad answered the phone. So I heard Billy go on the background, "Oh God what does she want" but I knew he was kidding but I pretended I didn't know and hung up. So during the show Billy & Howie were fighting on stage as always. Well Billy was squriting beer on Howie and then Howie squirted the rest of the been on me. Real sweet right?

Dec 14th, 1979
I went to see the Senders, Buzz, and Flyers at Maxs. It was ok. All of the Blessed were there. I spoke to Billy for awhile and he is sort of being a jerk. After we went to some after hours club called Stickball. It was ok but kind of boring. Tiny Tim was there. I don't think I will be going into NYC too much anymore. It has become so dull here and all of the people too. Something is changing. It is just not the same. Maybe I can become an actress and get into movies some way.

Dec 15th, 1979
I saw David Bowie on Saturday Night Live and then on a concert on TV. God he was so good. He's really getting back into drag. He should because he is such a girl.

 I did some more realizing last night. Last night at Maxs, some guy either overdosed or had an epilyptic attack so the bouncers at Maxs carried him outside and just put him on the sidewalk to turn blue. They did not even call for help. They just put him on the sidewalk to die. I don't want to go to Maxs too much anymore. God forbid something happens to you, they thrown you outside so they don't get involved.

Post Script
I had some additional writings but the pages have been ripped out of my diary. I hardly went into NYC after this night go to the clubs. Everything seemed to be changing or maybe it was me. Looking back, the entire time of following bands and then the punk scene in the late 70's was one of the most fun times in my life. I never thought that time would ever end. I still think the Blessed were of the best bands ever and I am sorry they did not last.

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Saturday, November 5, 2011

Finally another posting - several journal entries

I can believe I have not done this in so long. Anyway - after this, I should be able to get it into 1 more posting. Enjoy!

Oct 29th, 1979
I went for a job interview today. Ugh. One of them seemed ok. Iggy & Dead Boys are coming up. I can’t wait to see them both.

Oct 30th, 1979
So I am never going to see the Blessed again. I called Billy to see if he would put me on the guest list for Saturday and he said he would try. What a bunch of crap. I will go and see the Dead Boys instead that night. It just amazes me how guys in bands can be. I didn’t know it was a crime to be a fan. I should take everything I have of the Blessed and seal it in a box. I still like Walter & Brad but Howie & Billy kind of rule the band. I don’t think Walter gets involved in their childish garbage. Walter should go team up with Johnny Thunders again. What a dream pair. I wonder if the Blessed will ever go anywhere. I should go and do the Richard Hell fan club instead. I knew when I had the chance to do it last time I should have, something inside me told me. I knew my friendship with the Blessed wouldn’t last. I saw all the things changing, especially that 1 weekend. Billy met that girl that night and Maryann and I had that huge fight. Well Billy is only 17 so maybe that is why he acts the way he does.

Oct 31st, 1979
I went to see the Dead Boys at TRAX. It was so great. Johnny Zero looked so good. I went instead of going to see Iggy. I saw none of the Blessed there. I am still not going to see them anymore.

Nov 1st, 1979
I went to see the Dead Boys in Philadelphia at the Hot Club. God, it was so gross and disgusting there. I was standing in the front but had to move to the back of the club it was so awful there. I went with JoVan. We slept over Natalie’s house so that was a lot of fun.

Nov 3rd. 1979
I decided not to go to the Blessed tonight. It was hard not to go see them but it was for the best. Instead I went to see the Dead Boys at Heat. That club really stinks. I think every club sucks now. The rest try but they just don’t measure up. I am so obsessed with the Dead Boys and Jimmy Zero now. Jimmy Zero hurt his hand so they had to done some songs without them which sucked. Rick Derringer went on stage for some of the songs and it was pretty funny. Kind of boring to see him up there. I saw Paul Zone there and he was really friendly and so f’d up. He put his arms around me and kissed me goodbye. The Fast have been touring all over with the Cars and the guy from the Cars is going to produce their album. I was really happy for Paul Zone because he deserves it. It was really a fun night but it will feel weird when I run into anyone from the Blessed again.

Nov 4th, 1979
I went to see the Dead Boys at Squat. It was an afternoon show and it was so good. Jimmy Zero still could not play because of his hand so he announced the band and then for the rest of the show he stood at the side of the stage. Anyway – the show was so funny because Jimmy kept yelling for himself and the whole band was making comments to each other. I was never at anything like it. I want to be a Dead Boy. You know that I’m just a Dead Boy. Oh Dead Boys, Hail True love.

Nov 5th, 1979
I spoke to Eileen today. She is going to try to get my Blessed films back for me from Billy because I know I will never get them back from him.

Nov 6th 1979
I really think that Jimmy Zero is my favorite now. When Johnny Ramone comes back from tour, I am sure he will be my favorite again. Arturo called today and he thinks the Ramones will be back from touring on Dec 10th.

Nov 9th, 1979
I went to CBGBs and saw the Student Teachers, Colors, and Crayola. I really loved the Colors, the lead singer is so nice and so cute. The Student Teachers were really good as always and nice. I saw Paul Zone there and he acted like he never saw me at Heat and started to tell me all of the same stuff for me again. I saw Clem Burke there and he didn’t even say hello. I guess he is too much of a star now. I had a really good time considering I was at CBGBs but I don’t think I could stomach Maxs. That awful crowd there now, although there were such a bunch of jerks at CBGBs.

Nov 10th, 1979
I went to CBGBs again to see Tigerbeat (what a fantastic band), Colors, and Student Teachers but I left before the Student Teachers came on. I saw Brad and spoke to him for awhile and it was good to see him. But then I saw Billy & Howie and either they did not see me or they ignored me but I left before I would come face to face with them. Its so strange to worry about coming face to face with them. What a change from before when I would have died to have just seen them.

Nov 13th, 1979
So much as changed since I have started to keep this diary. I found out that Joody and some other people were at Maxs and saw Billy, Howie, & Brad. So Joody was talking to Brad about me and Howie walks by and goes “Oh she hates us now.” Well at least he knows it. The truth is don’t hate the Blessed. I love the Blessed. I just hate Howie & Billy. I had a crazy dream about Walter Lure the other night. I wish dreams did come true. I do like Walter Lure & Jimmy Zero both.

Nov 14th, 1979
I went to see the Dead Boys, Cheap Perfume, and Hammer Damage at Maxs and it was great. We were so far back online but don’t ask me how, once we were in there, I was able to get right up front right under Jimmy Zero. He looked so good and every so often he would do these motions that were wild. Billy & Howie were there. I know Billy saw me because I saw him move his head to look but I pretended I didn’t see him. F him, I don’t need all of his ego garbage. But I saw this advertisement for their record that it is coming out of course I had to take it. I just could not resist.

Nov 15th, 1979
I went to see the Senders at Maxs. Oh what a night. Billy & Howie were there and I didn’t talk to the all night. It is just so dumb and I am so sick of playing games. Howie was giving me dirty looks and Billy would just give me an evil stare. F them. The Blessed are playing on Sunday and I might go although I don’t want to lower myself.

Nov 18th, 1979
Oh hail true love. I went to this benefit at Maxs and saw the Blessed, Rattlers, and some other bands play. I sort of made up with Billy. At least we are talking now. I almost cried when I saw the Blessed. They were so damn good. Anyway – I had this long talk with Walter Lure. We spoke about my haircut and how to bleach out hair and the Heartbreakers are going to be playing again at the end of December. God I can’t wait. I miss them so much. Walter was so funny and he kept telling us these really funny stories about Johnny Thunders. Walter’s fave Rolling Stones song is ‘Stray Cat Blues” and so is mine. I can’t believe it. I spoke to everyone in the Blessed except for Howie but I think he has a mental problem. Anyway – I am so happy that I went tonight. Things were so much better than I thought they would have. I hate myself for falling in love with the Blessed again.

Nov 20th 1979
I went to Maxs. It was Ivan’s birthday so he had his band play. Frank Zappa got on stage and announced them. He got his hair cut and looked good. So Billy & Walter went on stage and jammed for “Happy” and “Stray Cat Blues”. Then Walter, Brad, and Howie jammed for “Chinese Rocks”. It was good to hear Billy since “Stray Cat Blues” as I had been wanting him to do it for so long.

Nov 21st, 1979
Arturo came into today to print more t shirts for the tour. I saw Levi and the Rockets at Maxs and they were really good. I have been on a Rolling Stones kick lately and just keep listening to them. I love the songs “Til the next time we say goodbye”, “Memory Motel” and “Dead Flowers”. I would love to meet Keith and get to talk to him.

I have been feeling so blah about everyone. I don’t even care about Jimmy Zero or Johnny Ramone. I should probably not go to the Blessed any more.

Nov 24th, 1979
I went to CBGBs to see Shrapnel and the Rattlers. Ricky from Phili came in for the weekend and we had such a great time.

Nov 25th 1979
I went to see Wayne County at CBGB’s. Brad was there and I also saw Billy. We talked for pretty long and he was surprisingly nice. But he asked me if I sent the letter to Maryann yet. Cathy has such a big mouth. Then I left CBGBs and went back later on. I saw Howie and I had a really long talk with him. It was the first time I had talked to him in so long and we actually got along. The Blessed are going to try to open for the Ramones on New Years Eve at the Palladium. I hope they do, it would so great for them. So I feel on good terms with the Blessed again. The Blessed are supposed to play in Phili in a few weeks and I would really like to go.


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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Move of the Story - Several days

I have been so lazy with posting so I will post several days at once.

Oct 18th, 1979
I still have not found a job in NYC but that is ok. I do the same thing here as I do home, nothing. Tomorrow I am going to go to some museums and apply for some jobs. Nicole & I are becoming pretty good friends. I talk to her a few times a day. Howie Pyro has become somewhat of an arrogant ass. The Student Teachers are opening up for Iggy at a few places. I can not believe that. They are reall going to go somewhere.

Oct 19th, 1979
I went to Club 57 to see the Only Ones and the Student Teachers. I had an ok time. Howie was there and I did not even say a word to him. No one really was there. I was hoping that Jimmy Destri would bring the rest of Blondie to the show with him but he didn't. I guess Billy really did go to Connecticut. I wonder why Howie did not have his harem with him. Walter Lure was there last night and I think he was with a girl. He got his hair cut but of course he looked cute anyway. Eilene Polk was there last night and she got her hair cut short and she looks really mod now. I got my hair but and it is so fucked up but I wanted it done. Well at least hair grows out.

Oct 22nd, 1979
I spoke to Billy and I got some things straightened out. He was semi-nice. He said the Blessed are really busy this week so he might not be able to give me my films. We did speak awhile. I would like for us to stay friends but with him it seems so impossible. Hopefully we will speak again this week. I really miss having fun times with him and laughing. I guess times will only tell.

Oct 26th, 1979
I am so furious. I am ready to move back home. Geri is so boring and she never wants to go anywhere. I don't even want to move with her anywhere after the loft is done. I wanted a roommate that I could go out with but she never wants to go anywhere. It is Friday night and she goes to bed at 9:30. I wanted to go to Club 57. I could have gone alone but I don't like coming alone at night. This area is so disgusting and this homeless guy is always in our doorstep. Why does this have to be right off the Bowery. We are supposed to get a dog tomorrow and then I just want to go out alone for the day. I finally move to NYC and it seems more boring than NJ. Joody is supposed to go to Gildersleeves tonight to see Harlow. Hopefully she will call. I am dying for a cigarette. So I have no idea what I was writing because some people just came over to visit for awhile. I am so glad. I feel so much better. I am sure that Geri is pissed because we probably kept her up. But it is a Friday night and it is my apartment too. The world does not end at 9:30 at night.

Ocy 27th, 1979
I got a dog today. She is some kind of a collie mix and her name is Eva. Geri & I went to the movies and saw "Lolita" and "Some like it hot". Both movies were so good. I think I am going to join the membership since it is $15.00 for the year and the movies are half price so instead of $4.00 it is $2.00. They get such good movies there. After we went to Max's and saw Voodoo Shoes and Cellmates. But we had to leave early because Geri wanted to. Billy, Walter, & Brad were there. I know Billy saw me and he did not even say hello. He disappeared for awhile and left. I find it very nervy of Billy not even to come say hello. I should say fuck the Blessed and forget that they ever even existed. I would be much better off. They have been showing videos at Max's so I saw last night Bowie, Blondie, & Sid. I was so good. The Blessed are in a movie that's being shown at Max's & I really haven't decided whether or not to go to it. I feel Billy is just treating me like crap. Not sure what it is with some bands. They are all on ego trips and for no reason. But the Ramones are nothing like that. Johnny is so sweet and he knows how to appreciate his fans but some of the other NYC bands are so horrible. I think it is because they hang in the clubs so much and people treat them really good so they think they are rock stars but they are not. Some of these people really think they are on a higher level because they are in a band. Bands would be no where without fans. No one would go see them or buy their records or wear their buttons. The Ramones are so different and not stuck up at all. I think Joey would be doing alot better without Linda and would also be alot nicer but...I think Arturo is such a dream.

One time JoVan and I were going to write a book on groupies. The dedication for the book was going to be:
The Fans who care,
The Groupies who dare,
the bands on the stage,
& the boys of young age.

Isn't that great. I thought of it. so JoVan thought of a great name for a fanzine - Stray Cat News. That would also be a great name for a book but I would like to title it The Groupie Book" Proud to be a Groupie. I would like to interview groupies and even how Rock Stars felt about groupies. Have lots of pictures. Info on how to get a rock star and all that good stuff. I bet the book would sell if it was a really good groupie book. I would even include the words to songs that had to do with groupies. I think I will get another diary and just put all of my thoughts in it for the book.


Monday, January 31, 2011

And on and on and on....

Oct 16th, 1979

I think Billy and I are in war. I called him and demanded my films back. I told him we could just meet somewhere but he is going to Connecticut for a week. I told him he should just stay there. So I told him he could give them to be next week but he said if he had time and I said he could take 5 minutes out of his day and meet me. He said we would discuss it next week. That bastard better put me on the guest list for the show for next week so I hope we make up by then. I went to Haydens Planetarium in the afternoon. I love it so much there. I almost invited Billy to go but I didn't. I just want us to get along and be friends. Why does that lately seem so hard? He should just keep his mouth shut once in awhile and think before he talks. And he has to get off of that ego trip he is on.


Saturday, January 1, 2011

Too Much Drama...

Oct 15th, 1979

Billy called me. I guess miracles do occur but he was so obnoxious. He got my phone number from Nicole. Anyway - later that night when I was talking to Nicole, she told me that Billy told her once she got to know me, she would not like me. So I called Billy back and yelled at him. I swear if I ever see him again, I wil not speak to him. He just has growing up to do. What do you expect from a 16 year old.


Sunday, November 28, 2010

The Move In

Sorry I have not posted in so long. Just busy with vacation, holidays etc.

Oct 12th, 1979
Moved into NYC today and went to see Cheetah's Band.

Oct 14th, 1979
I have been living in my home for 2 days. I live on East 2nd street. I cannot believe I finally moved into NYC even if just for a short time while the Ramones are on tour. There was some bum in sitting outside our door while I was moving in. But so cool being right around the corner from CBGB's.

We have had to clean up this place alot. I am learning not to have a heart attach everytime I see a cockroach. Gerry took Joey Ramone's bed and I took Arturo's. I think she is in love with Joey anyway. Joey Ramone has to be the biggest F'ing pig that has ever lived. So much crap everywhere but we really cleaned it up nice. They should appreciate it when they are back.

The loft is great. It is huge with really nice big windows that face the street, not that the view is so hot. It feel so good to be able to go out at night and not have to go back to NJ. I called Billy, God only knows why and he has turned into such the #1 bitch. He was supposed to be meet that girl he was seeing at the Mudd Club and never showed up. I really do feel bad for her since she is such a sweet kid. I really thought that Billy and I were good friends but maybe he just got sick of me.

I really thought I would be scared to be living in NYC but I really feel safe in this area. I cannot believe how many bums live around here but it is right off the Bowery. I found so many promotional items in the loft. I would love to steal all of them. I will definetly take some posters since there are so many of them.


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Saturday, November 6, 2010

The Blessed at CBGB's

Oct 9th, 1979

I went to see The Blessed at CBGB's. I was really upset because Billy did not put me on the guest list. I spoke to his girlfriend for a really long time and it seems that Billy really screwed her over. I also spoke to Billy quite a bit and he seems to be back to his old self and we were getting along. I'm still alittle pissed about the guest list though. I guess I will be seeing him more once I move into the city. Should be so much fun living in Joey Ramone's loft while they are on tour, only if it is just for a few weeks. For the first time I saw a few table back from the stage. It was interesting to see the whole band and be smushed against the stage. Walter was strange. He kept walking by and making strange faces at me. I kind of love Walter but I would never tell a soul. Oh the Blessed are such a bunch of f_-ups.