Reedited Version - Change of Plans

Sept 23rd, 1979

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I called up Billy for a change. I must be nuts or something. So I told him there was a chance I would be going to Max's so to go and I would give him the movie films if I was there. Well I was all ready to go to the Ramones and all of a sudden I just had to go to Max's instead. I saw Billy there. I saw The Heat and the 2 Timers. I offered Billy a ride home after but he said he was not going home. I have this horrible feeling that he left with some sleezy waitress. I am actually going insane over Billy. I feel he has turned my life upside down. Well I will try not to call him this week but obviously my word is not good. I know I won't be writing Billy anymore letters since he does not appreciate them. Over all, the night was kind of borning. Not too much going on. I should have gone to the Ramones. It was have been such a better night.

A Wasted Night

Sept 20th, 1979

I went into NYC with Mary Ann. She wanted to see Howie but he was not working. So we called Billy so I could try to get my movies back. He got my letter. I am kind of depressed about the whole situation. We met up with Jeff Miller and I think he is selling Billy drugs. I can't believe this is what is going to become of Billy. I have this feeling that the next Blessed show is really going to suck. I don't know if I even like them anymore. I am just so repulsed by this new drug habit. After we went over the Eileen's. She quit being the Blessed Manager and I don't blame her. Hopefully Billy will straighten himself out.

XOXOJLP
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Blessed are the Children....

Sept 19th, 1979

I spoke to Billy on the phone. He said he did not get my letter yet but I think he was lying. We only spoke for about 10 minutes because I had to get off. So I found out where Billy was last Monday when we could not find him and he was with Brad. I also found out that Mary Ann called Billy to get Howie's phone number. Billy told her I was really drunk on Saturday and was funny but he said I was acting kind of snotty. Anyway - I will see Billy tomorrow because Me & Mary Ann are going into the city to go shopping and Billy is going to meet us and he said he would give me my movies back.

"Would you belive me if I crawled in front of you and died,
Well on you I can depend to help bring my life to an end."
- Blessed (from "Trust Me")

XOXO JLP

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More Ramones...

Sept 18th, 1979

I went to see the Ramones at some club in NJ called Mothers. It was the absolute pits. Johnny was so funny. I embaressed him really bad screaming for him but he stepped on my finger once. It was also Dee Dee's birthday. The Ramones did some new stuff which was good of course.

I have had this horrible infatuation with the Rolling Stones lately. That is all that I ever play on my turntable. Always playing the Dead Flowers album. It is nice to listen to with all the lights out in my room and just lay there and listen to it play over and over. I also borrowed this really cute little Stones button that I wear all the time now.

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Dead Flowers...

Sept 17th, 1979

I spoke to Billy. I wanted him to meet us at Max's to give me back my films. Well he said he was not giving back the films so I did not make any plans to get together. So we went into NYC looking for some excitement. First we went to Madison Square Garden and hung out at The Who's limo waiting for them but it got boring so we left. Then we went to Studio 54 because Jay wanted to use the bathroom but they told her is was closed and she could not go in. So we wound up seeing Albert King at the Lone Star. I actually saw the Richard Hell roadie there which was kind of a surprise. We thought maybe Mick Jagger would be there but he wasn't. It seems whenever I go into NYC with no plans, I have so much fun. I mailed a letter to Billy yesterday and it was a good one. I sent him dead flowers in it. I also wrote in the letter that he should stay away from drugs. I think it was the nicest letter I ever sent him.

XOXO JLP
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Just another night...

Sept 15th, 1979

I spoke to Billy on the phone. We are going to meet him at Max's tonight so I can lend him the movie films I took of the Blessed. I wish they had sound to them. I was going to go to the Ramones instead but I heard that last night at the club, someone cut the wires so they could not play and that really scared me considering what kind of a paranoid person that I am. I hope tonight is fun. I can drink tonight since I am not driving. Maybe I will buy a bottle before I go since it is so expensive to drink at the club. I called Billy Howie by mistake. I think I am going to send Billy some dead flowers in the mail. I love that song by the Stones.

So we went into Max's and all of the Rock-a-billy bands were playing Fun Fun Fun. It was a really screwed up night. I threw up before I even got to Max's. Billy was there but all we did was fight. I had a fight with Joody also. Maybe it was the drinking. Everyone was pretty f'd up there. I think Billy is getting kind of deep into it. Hope he can handle it.

XOXOJLO
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The Senders at Max's

Sept 14th, 1979

I spoke to Billy on the phone and he was going to Max's so Joody & I went in also. We wound up driving him after all over the city to try to find him an open Burger King but he settled for a 7 - 11. We sat in front of his apartment until about 6:15am just talking before we went home. I got so mad at him because he kept making all of these stupid comments to me about how my goal in life was to marry Howie Pyro. Although I am sure many of us Blessed fans thought that at one time or another. We saw the Senders play at Max's. They were ok. I don't know - guys in bands can be such a pain. I used to always say Hail True Love but I think it should be Hail True Misery. Billy was telling me what jobs I would be good at since I really do need to find one. He said I should be either a telephone operator or a stand up commedian. I do not think I will do either.

XOXOJLP
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